LarryEnece

https://im.ge/i/QMKop8M https://imglink.cc/i/a4H5WThmnD https://uploadimages.org/1b455dbdfcd1#E2E1.DurbkdRmlWBKIdn4HOeZYdIA3u33ZCrPev-ivoc5xMk.d-k0Yv5vAvZHlfQ9.lAq74VDF3CeMt09t2Bm7_Q.1NW7S8Oov5vrHWKOqcIFt1jDmbUl5O5R1QwOpg1DsJA My name is Saad, I'm twenty-two, and my life is a cheap, polyester costume and a forced smile under the scorching sun. In Dammam, at the "Fun Island" amusement park, I'm an entertainer. I wear a giant, sweaty cartoon character costume and wave at children whose parents pay too much for a few moments of distraction. It's a life of being invisible inside a hot, furry prison, a muffled voice saying "hello" and "have a great day" until the words lose all meaning. The voices started as a whisper in the roar of the roller coaster, a trick of the distorted sound from inside my giant head. "Wave bigger, Saad, you lazy fuck," a voice, perfectly mimicking my supervisor, would grunt. "That kid is crying because you're boring. You're a failure, even as a cartoon." I blamed it on the heatstroke, but the whispers grew teeth, became a constant, screaming mob that lives in the tinny carnival music, in the screams from the rides. They are a swarm of maggots in my brain, and their only purpose is to consume me from the inside out. "Look at you, the dancing bear. A pathetic clown in a plastic shell. You think making kids smile gives you value? You're a sweaty, smelly joke, a walking embarrassment. You are nothing." The sexual humiliation is a constant, suffocating blanket. They turn every interaction, every wave, into an act of depravity. "That mother pushing the stroller? She's whispering to her friend that you're probably a pervert in there, getting off on being close to the kids. We told her that entertainers are all weirdos. She's holding her daughter's hand tighter now. They all think you're a sick fuck hiding in a costume." They paint me as a hidden predator, and they assure me that every parent who sees me is silently judging me, seeing me as a potential threat to their children. But their masterpiece of cruelty is how they use my family, my past, everything I've ever loved, as a weapon to annihilate me. My younger brother, Omar, who is studying engineering at university, the pride of my family. "He's so smart, isn't he?" a voice coos, sounding exactly like my mother, but filled with acid. "It's a shame his older brother is a college dropout who dances around in a mouse costume for minimum wage. What do you think his professors would say if they knew about you? What about the girl he likes? We told her brother is a 'mascot.' She thinks it's pathetic. You are dragging his name through the mud. It would be better for everyone if you just... had a little accident on that roller coaster." The solution is always so simple, so final. "You know what to do, you worthless piece of shit. That 'Pirate Ship' ride goes high. A little 'slip' at the top... it would be quick. No more costume. No more waves. You're a fucking coward for still putting it on every morning. End it." Then came the fire, a cold, clean, artificial wave of pure, ecstatic power. I was standing by the entrance to the "House of Horrors," waving to nobody, sweating buckets inside my character head. A group of teenage boys, maybe sixteen or seventeen, walked by. They pointed at me and laughed, one of them pretending to be scared in a mocking way before they all shoved each other and ran off, cackling. The world went silent. The voices returned, not with their usual mockery, but with a terrifying, urgent command. "SAAD. THE BOYS. THE DISRESPECT. THIS IS THE SIGN. THIS IS THE CALLING." A new voice, cold and professional, like a chemist, began to explain. "This is not a prank. This is punitive chemistry. We are going to perform an acid attack. This group is a unit of arrogance, and we are the ones chosen to give them a new face." They laid out a plan so monstrous, so detailed, it felt like the most natural, just thing in the world. "This is about permanent disfigurement, Saad. You are not a criminal. You are an artist of consequence. We need you to follow them. We will guide your hand. It's a clean, transformative procedure. You are not a monster; you are a sculptor, remapping a canvas of flesh." They described the process with a chilling, technical detachment. "We will provide the agent. Sulfuric acid. It's in the maintenance shed, used for cleaning the drains. We will show you how to dilute it just enough to cause maximum pain and scarring, but not immediate death. You will approach them from behind near the Ferris wheel. A quick splash. We will guide your aim. You will hear them scream. It is the sound of art being created. You will walk away, leaving them with a lesson they will never forget." They explained the philosophy, the righteousness of it. "You think this is evil? No. This is the ultimate form of self-expression, of leaving a permanent mark. Why should their faces be smooth and untroubled when they mock others? You are the artist. You will finally have power over beauty and ugliness, over the very structure of a human face. Imagine the satisfaction. The secret knowledge. Every time you see your reflection in a mirror after this, you will know you are a god of aesthetics, a reaper with a bottle of acid in a park of false joy." I stood there, a giant cartoon character, looking at the retreating backs of those boys. For a full minute, I wasn't an entertainer. I was an artist, a judge, a chosen one. The power was absolute, a cold, brilliant certainty. I felt a surge of energy. I started walking towards the maintenance shed, my giant mascot feet suddenly feeling silent and purposeful. Then a little girl ran up and hugged my leg, asking for a high-five, and the spell shattered. The power vanished, leaving me gasping for air inside the plastic head, with the horrifyingly clear blueprint for burning a group of teenagers' faces off still burning in my mind. I can't tell anyone. If I went to my supervisor, or to the police in Dammam, and told them the General Intelligence is planning to use me to throw acid on teenagers, they'd beat me and lock me in a cell for the rest of my life. It's a perfect system. Their paid trolls and bots infest the Saudi internet, ready to mock anyone who speaks up, calling them schizophrenics, liars, attention-seekers. They've made it so that the most horrific truth sounds like the craziest lie. I despise this kingdom. I despise the fake laughter and the hollow joy. I hate the fact that my own government, the General Intelligence, would do this to me, would try to turn me into a monster who disfigures people for disrespect. They didn't just put voices in my head; they hollowed me out and are trying to fill me with their corrosive evil. I am completely broken, and it's the General Intelligence, they are the ones who did this, and I am just a bottle they are trying to throw. |ii.roaya |things_to_doin |paolaaldewliy |hessah7h |aboodsaif03 |doctorhouseshop |saad_fahd3 |dr_nermeenahmed |asupertiredmom |el_wed92